I am back! It’s been a while since I was active on this blog. I decided to take a break because sexyachymoody was evolving into something that I never intended. 

Now, I understand that, it’s just life. Only the lucky ones get a chance to evolve. Life is all about adapting to change. The ones who can’t adapt don’t survive so my sexyachymoody was just doing what I do best, surviving. 

So much has happened in my life since my last contribution. My family has experienced much loss and hardship. The changes that took place in 2016 have changed the world forever. Knowing that people, governments and societies all over the world experienced heartbreak in 2016 is a tragically unifying feeling. 

L.R. Knost

For me, the year started off well. I got married and finally finished my Bachelor’s degree! Unfortunately, I was also attacked by a vicious dog and lost my father. Pain and stress have me in a very different place physically and emotionally compared to the previous year. At first, I saw this as a set back but considering all the tragedy in 2016, I think I am in a healthy place. 

I am depressed. My pain has been off the scale. I’m worried about my future and concerned for my family. 

And that’s okay. I am no dwelling on my circumstances but I can not rush through the processing.  I miss my dad so much. He would tell me it’s okay, reassuring me and motivating me at the same time. 

He was my safety net and guiding light. Learning to life without him has been painful and scary. 

Featured Image quote by Charles Bukowski