Not Your Average Detox

Not Your Average Detox

Part One 

I’ve been planning a detox for a while now. I’ve never done one before. So, I did some research and found some recipes that I thought would work for me. It started off great. The aroma from the ginger and spices simmering in the stove wafted through my apartment. I chopped fruit for breakfast and enjoyed it with honey and cinnamon. I was so excited to get started, I even talked myself out of coffee. 

“You don’t need the extra sugar”, I thought, “take an Exedrine for the caffeine.” So, that’s what I did. I’d had a couple of glasses of the spicy ginger concoction before the day took an unexpected turn. Instead of relaxing at home, enjoying my detox and working on my history presentation, I’d be going out for the afternoon. Out to lunch! 

So, I screwed up my detox with lo mein. It wasn’t even that great but I hadn’t had Chinese food in so long! I’d been craving it and couldn’t pass up the opportunity. Anything in the mall food court would have ruined my detox so I decided to just go for it! It came with a coke and I really felt like all my morning progress was going out the window…oh well. 

I came home and continued sipping my spicy ginger drink. At least it was healthy but today, I am starting over. However, I did start the day with coffee. I figured that there’s no reason to torture myself. The coffee is organic and the creamer is all natural. I will limit my sugar and caffeine intake for the rest of the day and the rest of my meals are already planned so today should be more successful than yesterday. 

I am also detoxing from social media! This portion of my detox has gone perfectly. I deleted several social media accounts that I felt like we’re no longer serving me properly and only kept two. Facebook helps me keep up with what’s going on with family and friends. Twitter is great for news. I deleted some games and other apps from my phone as well. There were just too many things to do in front of the tiny screen. I felt like it was beginning to interfere with my actual life. I don’t want to waste my life with my face in the phone. I want to have adventures with my fiancé, laugh with my friends, make stupid jokes with my sister, you know, make actual memories. Not, play words with strangers or re-post clever tidbits other people came up with. 

So, I stopped. 

I started the process last weekend. There were people I wanted to stay in contact with on Instagram and such. Everyday this week there’s been less and less to do on the phone. I’ve had to look outward for comfort and friendship instead of zombifying my mind with games and pointless social networks. At first, I was bored and kinda lonely. That lasted a day, maybe. After 24 hours of not using these sites and games, I felt happier. I actually watched a movie instead of half-assed listening to it while I stared at the phone. I am content doing one thing at a time and I don’t feel fidgety when I have down time. My mind is calmer and I honestly don’t feel like I am missing out. I don’t know why I ever thought I needed all that crap. I used to feel anxious if I didn’t check Facebook in the morning. Now, I realize that if someone needed me to know something, they’d call. They call even after I’ve liked their super important, life altering post anyway. 

A like still doesn’t replace a call. A post doesn’t replace human contact. People are social creatures but social media doesn’t satisfy every need. Generally, they only complicate things. People post prematurely and forget about etiquette. Jealousy arises because people work so hard to make themselves look good online when they could be falling apart in real life. Unfortunately, social media and smart phones aren’t going anywhere. I don’t think we really need all this technology. Not the way we are using it but it does have its benefits. Social media helps you stay in contact with friends and family, reconnect, raise awareness, raise money and network. 

I’ve just decided to break this down into a two part post. Since the detox isn’t over yet, I’ll share more about my experiences tomorrow. I had more to say about social media than I thought. I will share the recipes tomorrow too. You’ll get the recipe for my ginger tumeric detox drink, the green tea body wraps and my personal recipe for the citrus detox bath! 

Stay sexy spoonies! 

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Happy Awareness Day

Happy Awareness Day

When I was first diagnosed, I was depressed, distraught and in excruciating pain. I had no idea what fibromyalgia was or how much it would change my life. 

I have always had a history of getting sick when I was depressed. I felt so useless at one time in my life, I completely stopped caring about myself and caring for myself. I ate poorly and infrequently. I was drinking a lot of alcohol. Too much. I knew it was too much. My immune system got so low, I got shingles. After trying to remain so numb for so long, I’d never felt such pain. I still have scars around my torso and it was just the beginning of people telling me “You’re too young for that!” Hearing that is like being stabbed in the heart. I know I’m too young to feel this way. That doesn’t change anything. 

The alcoholics in my life left me with a distorted view of what a functional human being should be. I won’t go into the details of my childhood or how I spiraled out of control or how I almost died. It’s all too much. Maybe, I’m just not ready. Maybe, I’ll write a book one day. Maybe, it’s not that important anymore. All I will say is that my childhood, my life, has been magical. Very much like a fairy tale with good and evil. I have always battled depression and social anxiety, like I was just born that way. 

I was actually really happy and healthy when I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia. I was in the best shape of my life. I’d learned a lot about myself and found someone wonderful to share my life with. I was eating healthier and working out. I’d lost 80 pounds. Half of which I’m pretty sure I lost through lifestyle changes but the other 40 pounds should probably be attributed to intestinal issues. I was diagnosed with IBS but that doesn’t complete the puzzle. I am quite certain I also suffer from gastroparesis but without insurance, doctors don’t want to waste  time on me. I can’t afford all the tests and honestly, I should see a neurologist for all of this head pain I can’t control and worry about not being able to eat later. At least I’m skinny! 😉 I’ve never been able to say that before. I know being healthy is much more important and I’m going to try and address these issues as soon as possible. 

Anyway, I’d been in a couple car wrecks and injured my back working out. I just couldn’t get better. I spent months in bed before finally going to the doctor. So, came the fibromyalgia diagnosis and the long hard road to where I am at now. I’ve had to make a lot of changes in my life to cope with the fibromyalgia, the brain fog, the pain. I still can’t work full time but I am back in school, I do yoga, I write. The most important discovery that I have made is learning that I am an empath, a highly sensitive person. I feel the emotions of others. They manifest through me. I self medicated to escape these feelings. Now, I’ve learned to embrace them. I have a desire to understand them. It helps be connect with people better and help them. 

Fibromyalgia sucks. I wouldn’t wish it on anyone but it’s helped me discover who I am, who I want to be. I am learning to embrace who I am instead of running from myself. 

I am the face of fibromyalgia! 

Stay sexy spoonies! 

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