I know Halloween is over but I just couldn’t resist sharing this scary cautionary tale. This is a horror story about how I was nearly transformed into some kind of bitchy robot under the supervision of my doctors. In addition to Fibromyalgia, I have a few other conditions and ailments. It is not uncommon for those with chronic illnesses to battle a myriad of health issues. Unfortunately, this isn’t the first time I’ve suffered such a mishap. A lot of the fibromyalgia drugs the doctors were experimenting with early in my diagnosis left me feeling like an angry, depressed zombie. Buspar is what made me finally realize how dangerous prescription medications could be. It’s also when I realized that my doctor may not always know what is best for me.
Fibromyalgia makes dealings with your emotions more difficult. Not just because of the high pain levels and lack of sleep. Fibromyalgia greatly intensifies all your feelings. This may not be an issue when you’re feeling blessed but if you’re angry or upset, it’s easy to become irrational. When I was first diagnosed, I had a really hard time dealing with my anger and feelings of disparity.
It turned out to be more than just Fibro though. I learned that I had Polycystic Ovary Syndrome. The diagnosis explained a lot of issues such as the debilitatingly painful periods, irregularity, moodiness, adult acne and way too much hair growth. Hormonal imbalances are difficult enough to deal with without factoring in invisible illnesses too. Many with fibromyalgia also suffer from hormone troubles. So, my doctor put me on some medicine. A water pill, sounded harmless enough so I added it to the many other pills I was taking for my various health issues. At first, I felt like I got a week out of every month back! The cramps that normally forced me to stay in bed for days were practically gone and my face was clearing up. But then, I noticed my hair was falling out and the unwanted hair growth hadn’t slowed down much. Despite not getting the exact results I was looking for, my doctor urged me to stick with it. So, did for about a year but I just didn’t feel satisfied with the results I was experiencing so I decided to gradually stop taking the medication.
Now, I am completely off of the water pill and trying to treat my PCOS naturally. I am realizing what a bitch I’ve been the last year! Those pills may have relieved my cramps and night sweats but they were turning me into an ungrateful hag without me even noticing! I can tell when I’m being bitchy because I’m about to start so, I try to tone it down but I never realized all the affects that medication was having on me. This could be potentially dangerous! Not just to my health but to my well being and relationships. I’ve been sweeter since I stopped taking the medication and I can see a difference in the people around me. I’m more pleasant to be around and everyone is happier because of it.
So the moral of the story is, listen to your body. Doctors may know more about medicine but you know more about your body than anyone else. My doctor didn’t listen to me so I was forced to take my health into my own hands. I think this is something that many with invisible illnesses battle on a regular basis. It’s unfortunate that good doctors are so hard to come by but you deserve to have someone listen to you and take you seriously. Don’t give up and don’t just blame new symptoms on old diagnoses. If you didn’t find my horror story that scary, you should have experienced the point of view my poor fiancé gallantly endured. 😉
Having a chronic illness or hormone imbalance will definitely change you but you don’t have to lose yourself in the journey to wellness. Take advantage of this time and allow yourself to grow and explore new things. Do your own research. Listen to your body and confidently do what it’s telling you. Maybe you need to switch doctors but that’s better than falling into a deep depression because your treatment plan is forcing you to lose touch with your true self. Your treatment should make you feel
better, not worse or indifferent. Take charge of your health by looking within yourself and determining what you really need. Find someone you can share your experience with. You should definitely have a team of doctors you trust but to heal yourself you’ll need love and spiritual guidance as well. Chronic illnesses take a toll on your body, mind and soul.
Get happy, be sexy!